i cut on my wrist today and its summer and the weather is too warm for long sleeves how can i hide them :/ ?

I’m losing my fucking mind! and its the scariest feeling in the world 

fighting a losing war with yourself everyday is the most tiring thing i could do, clinging onto that last inch of strength to hold one just one more day is the most draining thing. i can feel myself going insane i can feel myself losing my mind a little more each day, i can feel my thoughts getting more out of control every night and i can see that theres less to cling onto all the time, till one point i know whats going to happen, I’m going to give up. help.

i liked it better when i didn’t have to see a therapist. when i could just pretend that one day i would forget everything bad and when i could ignore the fact that drugs won’t keep me happy forever and i could just stay in bed all day and hate my life. now i have to hate my life and have someone tell me I’m always going to remember all the horrible fucked up things, that there never going to leave me, and have someone telling me all the fucked up side effects of drugs and my copping mechanisms.

what do you do when nothing feels good anymore? I’m at a loss with everything

I’m really quite scared of my own mind these days,

never said this before, iv thought it, but never said it. I genuinely want to kill myself, people think that counciling and physiatrist and doctors and pills, medication, keeping busy and occupied are going to sort my head out? my head is done in and messed and screwed and fucked up because of things that have happened to me, real things iv lived and experienced theres no taking back something like that ones its happened its happened, we don’t live in a world where theres time machines, and people who can eras crap and horrifying experiences and its so easy for others to judge and advise but no one can understand how it feels no one was me when these things were happening. i don’t want to be living a life where for the rest of my life i know something like what has happened has happened i shouldn’t have to I’m 17 and I’m dealing with more than i can take on i just don’t know what to do anymore i really don’t.